change

why are inmates forced to shave?
i may be wrong, but it is to enforce discipline right...
maybe i need a little discipline in my life.

and doesn't a shaved head to imply reform.
maybe i need to be in reform too.

that are just 2 reasons...but the gist of it all is - i need some changes in my life. and i don't mean just physically.

do i suck?

when someone says i suck, this is how i would reply.
a: you suck leh
sam: actually i don't really use a straw. do you use a straw?
a: yes i do
sam: and how do you use a straw?
a: i suck...

lesson learnt --> be environmentally friendly - don't use straws, or you'll be a sucker for life.

standing in unity, not division.

just came back from National Conference 08 and it has been a good time - good, not as in it was super fun [ok, not saying it wasn't] but good as in it was a very good experience.
one of the biggest lessons i've learnt is that the world is just so much bigger than the world around me. all my educational life, i hardly had the chance to meet people from differnet language or enthnic group.
i grew up in a sep sch - Maris Stella High School, both pri and sec, which meant i did not have any malay or indian friends while growing up..and when i went aj, the entire odac was all chinese, and my class was all chinese too but one - hajar. we were in the same clique, but i guess at that point in time, i was already too sheltered and scared to initate a deeper relationship other then what was comfortable. and when i went serve my ns, it was 140+ chinese and about 5 indians only. so guess who i stuck with.
anyway, how many of us are too comfortable in our comfort zone? we happily stay in our churches, worshiping in our own language. or perhaps we get too narrow-minded in our denominations? somehow, sub-consciously, we forget that God's world is much larger than what we see. I thank God for Christian Fellowship. it offered me a glimpse of His world, one where people can worship and study the bible together with one purpose - because we love Him. for once we forget that we come from different denominations, and we get to know people from different church background and realize...we are not that different after all.
and i thank God for NC. being in the com added a whole new dimension once again. just as one part of my wall was demolished, God started to break down another. now, language and culture is not such a big issue anymore. yes, we might be limited by the language or culture barrier, but we are drawn together by a more significant similarity - we are all God's people and we seek to love and know Him.
somehow, i think God is speaking [not audibly] to me. when i first took office in exco, i shared that it has been too long that people [Christians and pre-believers] in campus has seen Campus Crusade, Navigators and Christian Fellowship as 3 different organizations. And now, after NC, i am even more convinced that
Many have asked...What is the difference between the three organization? Now with my new insight, when people ask me that question, i will ask them, "why don't you ask what is the similiarity?" yes i may be skirting the issue, but i think we need to start educating people that we are all one body in christ. we stand united in him, not divided. we merely are different body parts of the same body, doing different jobs, but orchestrated by one.

on a side note: blogging is not easy. i wish i can just transfer my thoughts into the blog, because it is not easy to translate my thoughts into words. its something that i have always struggled with. how can i verbalise my thoughts that people can understand what i am saying, without misunderstanding...